Unpredictable

The thought of having their baby was now the greatest reason that kept the couple moving forward every new day. They liked Liz,  immediately meet and were planning to get everything done quickly as their hopes of being parents were taking them further even in the darkest of time. The reproductive specialists took 9 samples of viable embryos to keep their possibilities up to the mark.

The Happiest Day

“We sat around a table and watched three pregnancy tests turn positive one after the other,” Jake recalled. It was after 3months of they were all overjoyed as this was a good news after a long hectic period. Liz shares her experience, “To experience that moment with Emmy and see the hope in her eyes was incredible. That was the most perfect day we ever spent together.”

Jake added, “To say it was emotional is an understatement, I know I can speak for Emmy when I say I think neither of us had ever felt an excitement or feeling like it – it was utterly incredible.” However, the good times for them were now over.

Together Till The End

“But less than an hour after doing the tests Emmy could barely keep her eyes open – the tank was well and truly empty. Truth be told, Emmy never fully woke up,” said Jake. Emmy died on June 16, 2017, at the age of 31 after 18 months long struggle with a rare thyroid cancer. She left the world, though the story didn’t end here…

Last Words

“A week before she died Emmy woke up for a few hours and it was like the lights suddenly came back on, I can’t describe it,” Jake devastatingly recalled, “She said ‘do you think I’m dying?’ It was just the worst feeling of my life, having to say yes. And having to see her, for the first time in my life, scared and crying.”

Only Hope

The widower was living with one thought, “She died blissful in the knowledge we were going to have our baby.” Yet Jake felt “utterly lost and empty without her.” Jake said on the loss of his love, “She was my north, my south, my east, my west. The reason I wanted to wake up every morning and be a better person.” But Jake’s only hope was about be shattered too.

Shattered

The baby was the only ray of light in Jake’s life after his childhood love left him to live in the world but a disheartening news came when Liz informed him that the pregnancy was unsuccessful and hereafter the volunteer surrogate made two more attempts that were unsuccessful before Jake finally gave up on that option.

“After two failed attempts and more consideration than any of you could ever imagine, I have decided to step back from the surrogacy journey and delay it indefinitely,” he said. Despite all that happened, Jake learned the lesson of never giving up from Emmy and so he was determined to go on.